Self-Centred Sundays

Looking Back

I’m still having a love affair with last week. It had it all: from all out detoxes, to heart-stirring conversations and all-you-can-eat organic pizza. Torrential rain and a hot, blazing sun. Silent downtime and a bulging coaching schedule.

Mid-April, I truly love thee.

White Light

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Upon returning from a whirlwind trip interstate last Saturday, I sat at my desk, opened my laptop, and squinted at the screen. I can’t do this right now. The screen amplified my migraine and my body was still humming from the remnants of adrenaline floating in my system from speaking on stage the night before.

On Sunday, I emailed my friend Belinda, who is also my mentor – and very conveniently, also a psychic and medical intuitive – and wrote…

Hey Belinda!

Help! I feel like my soul is being sucked out of my eyeballs!

A 3 Day White Light Intensive is just what my body and mind ordered. 3 days technology free: no instagram, wifi, TV, phone or radio. Just presence. Just breathing, and a little reading. And long walks along the beach. And lots of pure, love-filled, healing energy being beamed my way via Belinda.

I’ve heard stories from other people who’ve come out the other side of these White Light retreats with pages and pages of downloaded information after being sent on some type of divine and other-wordly vision quest, where suddenly everything becomes crystal clear.

I didn’t have that experience this time, which is 100% okay, and right. To be honest, I’m really enjoying the pace in which my life is unfolding right now; everything seems to be unravelling slowly and peacefully, and it feels really lovely. A far cry from the speedy (albeit amazingly!) roller coaster I’ve been on for the last nine or ten months.

What I felt in my heart though, were beautiful images of me forming many more tight and intimate bonds with women by working with them one on one. I felt laughter and tears and teamwork, and came out my retreat smiling, and ready to connect. (If you need a coach… wink wink ;) )

Oh. And during my White Light Intensive, I didn’t eat. Call me crazy, but I combined it with a…

Sol Cleanse

Six jars of delicious, fresh juicy elixirs every day, for three days.

It was easy, and tasty; and I feel as though combining the cleanse with a tech-free break strengthened the capacity for my body to re-calibrate and heal. I’ll definitely be going back for more from this awesome company, local to the Gold Coast!

Deep + Meaningful

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I long for conversations that are strung together with heart and soul, interwoven with curiosity and tied off with a ribbon of empathy. Conversations that easily flow from gentle laughter to fragile moments that have you batting your eyelashes in an attempt to hold the tears at bay.

On Saturday night, I had one of those very conversations, mainly centring around deep callings to experience life a little differently – in more of a worldly, heart-wrenching way.

It was beautiful, and I am so, so grateful for it.

The end result? I want to experience profound humility! I’m at home now; in this body, on this coastal town in Australia, in this moment. I’m not running away anymore, like I did for all those years. I don’t want to numb my life out, or distract myself – I just want to experience life in new and different ways. Self-love, vulnerability and curiosity are the markers that direct my life, and from those three ponds, springs philanthropy.

Is it acceptable to be so grateful for such an abundant and opporunity-laden life, but at the same time, crave for the understanding of what it truly means to suffer; just so I can be there, and hold someone’s hand, and look into their eyes, and cry with them? I know in my heart that the answer is yes. I know that empathy is one of the most beautiful traits of being a human being, and as much as I’m constantly stirring this pot of spirituality, I so appreciate what it is that makes us human.

Glen and I will go to South East Asia, probably in August this year (maybe Vietnam?) for a little R+R, and I’ll be treating that short break as not only an opportunity to melt into the experience of being on holiday as an entrepreneur, but also as a warm up for something much more affective, more humbling and likely, more uncomfortable.

Is it too early to declare 2014 The Year of The Open Heart?

Clearly, the epic memoir Wild, by Cheryl Strayed has my heart doing backflips. Give me that raw, unforgiving experience of what it means to be ALIVE!

You know what else I dug this week? Cranking JT’s new album at 6am and jumping on my mini tramp half naked. As mentioned above, careering into the game-changing work of art from author Cheryl Strayed. I have a feeling my life will never be the same again by the time I finish reading Wild. Yoga and Pilates Barre – consider me hooked. Breathing, liked I’ve never breathed before. Connecting with a record number of clients after my retreat; happy heart! Oh! And spending hours with Rach compiling a very special project for you – which then lead to Japanese food – which then lead to the above conversation…

How I Celebrated Self-Centred Sundays This Week.

The sun was HOT and bright at 7:30am and I knew from early on I’d be spending a large chunk of my day outside. And that I did.

I walked laps of the beach.

I read in the sun at Burleigh Point.

I ventured to the Organic Markets.

I roasted pumpkin.

And started the journey of weaning myself off shampoo, conditioner and facial cleanser.

I drank the best cacao smoothie ever.

And chewed on brown rice.

It was lovely.

Here’s how YOU celebrated! Hashtag that shit: #selfcentredsundays

Facing Forward.

This week beckons: Good old fashioned fun and romance! My man’s in town for one night this time round, bring on date night!

I want to feel: Grateful that I have the opportunity and resources to dream up and create whatever life I can envision for myself. Who am i kidding? I already am grateful for that.

I’m going to say no to: Hhhmm. You know what? I’ve got my no’s pretty well sorted this week. This is definitely a YES week.

And yes to: Adventure. I’m going to conjure up some exploration!

I hope you had a fabulous weekend, and that you’re feeling bright and ready for this week ahead!

Tell me, am I the only one wanting to get my hands dirty and set off into the unknown?